Heartstopper

i wish i had the power to replay the year and make good with my mistakes.
i know i’m not perfect, but sometimes — just sometimes i can be so "tanga" its annoying.
for not knowing when to say No
for trying hard not to be mataray
for showing people that i have not changed
for trying to convince myself that i have grown
for not being happy with the situation
for wanting things differently
for not accepting the truth
for trying to change the past

I know no one’s perfect, but still there are things i wish i could have done differently if not better. just as the saying that "there are no mistakes, just lessons to be learned" i still wish that i have learned these lessons differently, not the hard deppressing way. the year is just about to end and with the coming year is the new hope that i will be a stronger, happier, better person.

if not, then i just have to make sure i do a good job of slitting my throat…